So yesterday I went out with Alby & Yol. And we had the best time ever (!!) Firstly Alby came to pick me up & then we went to kl central. Letmetellyou,I met so many interesting characters on the train & LRT haha. It didnt use to be this fun last time. Probaly cause I was less grown up & less observant. So back to the story. I hate touching things that are not guarenteed 100 percent clean. So slowly I took out my small tissue pack & took one out. I wrapped it around the pole & happily touched it :) Alby touched it already so I just stared at his hand touching the pole :D I was given weird looks by the people butyeah who cares,I like to be clean.

So then we met up with Yol at kl central,hehe super fun. So long neh see her. We were walking around & Alby said " look for someone who looks kinda lost " Then Yol was the one who found us first,lol. So we went to Imbi(time square) Bought some top then went to borders. I seriously wanted to stay there the whole day. Had a hard time choosing what books to get cos they were all so niceeeee. Crappy maynn. So in the end I closed my eyes & grabbd as many books in the pile I build. Haha. Then we got bored & decided to go eat. So then we went to bb to eat. The man at the shop was suprisingly rude. Excuse me sir,try treating your customers nicely. They're the ones giving you money. ASS. Before we got there we got lost. Trying to find jalan alor or something like that. We panicked when we saw the celcom fair thingy & thought we we lost. Turns out jalan alor was a 2 min walk from there lol.

So then I wanted to go to mng & the place with the coolest stock was of course pavi. Im very disappointed with mng this time. Seriously no new tops,borrringgggg. So we went to forever 21 & a few other shops where I spent my money bahaha. Poor Alby had to follow Yol & me around. He enjoyed himself I think. Looking at all the weird tops haha. " Wht this neckline so low,boobies nampak bah" Hahahaha. So Yol & me went to try on stuff & we had to leave Alby outside :( poor hippo! I paid for the tops n dresses then we went out. So by then it was already about 7 something. So we walked to dome at bb to do some s______-ing. Hung around there till about 8 something. Then we took the lrt to kl central. We waited for Yol to find a cab,but no cab wanted to take r cause of the jam & her place is quite close. One guy actually told her to walk. IS HE SERIOUS? Yol's a girl,it was super dark already & it was raining also! How can you say that to a girl? Its not safe & I cursed that cab driver. ASS! Then Alby & me went backkkk. Bought chocs & sempat go cb kejap. Pure vanilla yum yum. Was so tired. Walking around & buying stuff & trying on stuff. Yes Im really tired. Talked on the phone for a while with my bf. Who's an idiot btw.

Thanks Alby & Yol for bringing me out :)) Kl is so much fun-er with people from back home. Not that I dislike going out with my cousins who are from kl haha.

Im sick of this lah,I don't mind white lies. But if its something this big it just hurts. To think that you would do such a thing ugh

I decided that I would keep my blogspot account. Tumblr is for pictures & um lil notes. Blogspot is for endless rambling. Thanks! X

YO PIPUL I MOVED TO TUMBLR,TUMBLR SHO SUPER KEWL

http://fat-assyon.tumblr.com/

please relink me muahahaha <3

Im in the process of moving to tumblr. BAHAHAHA tumblr so fun *lick screen lick screen

Why must people bad mouth me? Who say I cannot speak Iban? " Bulak nya iban eh,klaka iban pun xpandei. agik rupa iban sikda " So you & your shallow mind can eat your words because I can speak Iban! Not all Iban's are low-lifes ( not that Im bad mouthing other ibans ) But yes,it is a fact. Whenever you go to town,the youngsters hanging about in the ripped clothing who look like thieves are usually Ibans. But please,not all Iban's are like that. Like my family for instance,we are educated & you don't see me walking around town as if Im on drugs. So please,just because Im not a sampah masyarakat don't think that Im not Iban. As if I don't understand when you people talk about me in Iban. UGHHHHH



Tuk aku kak nunjuk agai kitak semua aku nemu bejakuk iban. Baca amat-amat leka jakuk ku tuk. Anang gik kitak ngumbai aku ndak nemu bjakuk _____ dirik empu. Sekumbang ku slalu pulai rumah panjai subak,salu meh aku betemu ngau bala-bala dirik sebilik. Nyadi ku ninga sidak ya bjakuk iban. Nyu melut mata ku,laban ndak nemu nama utai ke sidak ya. Aku sigik nemu bjakuk iban,tang tik jakuk iban dalam. Ndak entu nemu meh aku. Tang urang tuai diatuk,pantang ndak nemu jakuk iban dalam alu meh sidakya bjakuk utai jaik tentang kitai. Pantang kitai nyaut mimit,alu dipadah ka urang kitai ngelaban sidak iya. Udah nyak,tik nitih ke sidak iya. Tik kitai tuk induk,mesti diau bak dapur. Nulung urang berapi smua. Kami sigik ngereja pengawa nyak,tang ndak slalu diau bak dapur. Ndak patut seari-ari kak berapi ajak-ajak. Legik utai dempa ndak abis,nganuk gak. Madah kitai ngayah ke utai. Akai dai. Susah amai. Kenyak meh idup aku sekumbang indai apai ku bak kl. Kami diibun inik kami. Merinsak amai. Tang manah gak bisi urang ngibun. Ndak gak aku ngau madik ku rapal. Ya gak aku slalu nadai bak rumah. Slalu bak skula,maya nyak kami kak periksa PMR. Diatuk,aku bak kl. Nyamai gak asai. Ku endak betah tik tlalu lamak jauh ari indai apai aku. Ya gak aku paling biak. Udah meh nyak,nangkak tuk ajak ku bjakuk. Tik nitih ke peneka ati,lamak udah ku baduk nulis. Semadi ngenang urang madah ku ndak nemu bjakuk iban. Baca meh tuk!

Last nite i was sleeping then suddenly i woke up cos i thought i smelled icecream. Now u must think im crazy cos usually icecream is odourless fragrance less eh whatevvvvvaaaaa lazy wanna think so then i got hungry then syl texted me. wanted to scream when i saw the text,wanted to call her but neh credit so lame haihhhh

okay back to the story i got hungry then i fought with myself wanna go get icecream or not. kept on arguing with myself then the next minute i knw i was on the floor in front of the refrigerator ( eh i think i splld it wrong who cares ) with my blue spoon inna tube of icecream hihihihihihi

kudos to the person who created icecreammmmmm mwa mwa mwa!

bahahahhahhaa oh no my mom cme into my room & the first thing she said
" uve only been here a few days & ur clothes are everywhere "
muahahahahaha i guess my " later " from my last post was not soon enough haihhh

i think my bf s angry cs ive been neglecting him since ive got here.
food first,love later.
i shall call him tonite or maybe it wll be the other way round muahahahahaha that is if i remember i tend to frgt after my tummy s satisfied okay gtg going out bye xx

Am I smart enough for inter schl? You have to be super smart to enter the school I have my eyes on,I mean high level of knowledge on everything. Cos if you msk Y11,o levels trus whttt Ive been goyang kaki-ing since PMR ended what 2 weeks ago? What if I forgot all the things I learnt for 3 years? :O I meannn likeee Im so used to being in the top class back home. But obviously in inter schools the smartness (not even sure if thats a word muahahaha) level is like so much higher. I mean to be in the top class. If theres even a top class. honour class or whatever they call it

What if Im actually not so smart or in simple words Imma big dumbo after all :O

Plus if I enroll there next year Ill be taking O Levels & thats scary plus I just finishd pmr & but yeah seriously what if Im actually stupid :O What if I can't catch up with all the new subs & my O Levels results are horrible poopie shitty crappy? Or am I worrying too much? I haven't even visited the schools I want to go to yet & Im already worried about the assesment test. Should I study? Im too lazy to do that. So worried yet so lazy. So odd

So should I stick with my decision to go to an inter school when we move next year? cant even decide what flavour of icecream to get,but this i can decide. i wanna go to inter schl

What if the school I wanna go to has no space for new students? Takkan I wana go to fairview pulak,I wanna go to GIS or Alice Smith at least. Cempaka is my last choice. But seriously,what if no space for new students? && Y11 starts Aug 09. What am I gonna do while waiting for school to start? If I already move to kl takkan I just wana goyang kaki & wait for school to start?

My mom said better I go to school at smk kid first while waiting for my acceptance letter/school starts which is IF I get in. I hope they don't put me on the waiting list. I hope some kid like get expelled then there's space for me. Shiet thats selfish righttttt. Dnt care he/she must be so noob to get expelled neways op okay sorry. I hope that I get a place in the school & nobody has to get expelled for itttt

My parents are so determined to move.

At first I thought they were playing around. But then I was told to look for schools & the fees & the area & stuff ohhh shietttt im moving nomore classmates ive known since kindergarten nomore lepak engtat nomore eleh i can go back ba hols but alaaaaa it wont be the same as seeing them everyday haihhhhh :\

i think i wanna cry now so lets hope the financial stuff & the space stuff & the test stuff can be handled & I get to go to GIS/alice smith/cempaka. School u better make me smart bcos ur fees so spensive make my eyes burn if x,i memberontak oh muahahahaha

now i wana cry i wanna move i dont wanna move i wanna move but can kah if i bring my friends? haiya dont wana worry bout that. later my i bcome old

so cold stupid aircond i forgot where i put the remote my room so messy. if my mom comes in she'll eat me up oh no better tidy up but so lazy later lah hahahaha

i wanna go eat icecream bye xx

eh if you have any comments about the school stuff,im me at msn
yawnhohohaha@hotmail.com

I cry when I think of Ed Westwick =.=

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The joys of being alive,I get to eat all of this. I don't care I get fat,they're too yummy to resist haihhhh 0_0

I can finish 2 tubes of Haagen Dazs' Apricot & Cream/Cookies & Cream in 15 minutes. The thing I love

about KL is that all kinds of food are at your fingertips here. Gimme good food over clothes anyday.

Can't you see that you're suffocating me? I want my freedom back haihhh 0_0

How can you dream big when you're being tied down to the floor mhmm?

LOL,had nothing better to do.

Will post another pic after Ive been here a few days. I guarentee it won't be this neat muahahahaha :D

Hi hello Im blogging from my room at NCI here. This place is really nice,seriously. I expected it to be medical-ish. But oh-boy was I proven wrong. I was super suprised when I was greeted by modern architecture,lol. So my flight was sokay. Travelling alone has its advantages. Oh yeah,I can't help but grin when I think of the attendant who escorted me everywhere throughout my trip. Can someone spell major hottie puh-lease? Oh boy oh boy. I went all giggly school girl ish when the attendant at klia took me to claim my baggage on that super cool car thingy. Had so much fun driving around in that,I mean like everyone else had to walk but I just had to sit & relax. Took my bags & we went to platform 3. Spotted my mom & we went all matrix slow motion about-to-hug motion. Mayn,53 days without my mom was unbearable. Hugged my daddy who was in the car,he looks better now. So we talked & talked & talked nonstop. My uncle was with us,his flight back to qatar is abt 8 hours away so he went back to NCI with us. So then we went to some mamak shop & ate. BLABLABLABLA boring stuff. It has only been 3 days & my nails are already chipped & I did not bring my nail polish. haihhhh =.= So now Im watching gossip girl,ugh season 2 on 8tv. Eww,season 3 is like out already! Slow much? Yeah,Im super thankful this place has astro services. FANTASTIC OKAY! :3

So okay Im blogging in my room. Scary okay,I don't like sleeping alone in a strange place. But who cares,my own room. lol :)) So bintulu people don't miss me too much kay? Love you guys like crazy mwa mwa mwa!

I hate bugs,you have no idea how much I hate bugs
Im at teapot atm & 5 minutes ago I was happily surfing the net when I saw something move.
EW EW EW,i immediately screamed when I saw it was a cockroach. I don't care it was tiny,bug-alert!
Scary smelly stupid ew bug. Ugh,you have no idea how much I hate bugs. They're the only creatures I despise.

Im off to kl tmrw! YIIPEEE YAYY YOOO,giddy up jigga man aley yoop moohajucka chicka chocko rep rep!
Miss my mummy miss my daddy ((:

Chuck Bass: We could never be boring.

Blair Waldorf: You say that, but I know you. You're Chuck Bass.

Chuck Bass: I'm not Chuck Bass without you.

I would kill to have my very own Chuck Bass HAIHHHH 0_0

What is it with the fb-sters these days?
They add us up,then they write on our walls "thanks for adding"
wth? hello,don't you know the difference between adding & approving?
So please,if you added me up & I approved,
Say "Thanks for approving" not "Thanks for adding" or Ill delete you muahahahaha :3

You don't seem to understand,I don't want this to end
But you keep on rambling about things I dont wanna hear
Why can't you see things the way I see it?

Who to gimme piggyback rides when I weight 45kg?
Who to poke my tummy?
Who to listen to me whine about my hair & other stupid girlish stuff?
Who to come over & hit poopy bobo?
Who to call poopy bobo podobodo or something lidat?
Who to wipe my tears away?
Who to ikat mati the strings on my top?
Who to sit wimme during church?
Who to watch lame movies wimme?
Who to scare me?
Who to draw for meeee?
Who to get lost wimme when we go to open houses?
Who to cook me imaginary food?
Who to talk to me till sunrise?
Who to become a jellyfish on the blue sofa at my house?
Who to rape kooky?
Who to take care of the house when we're away?

Why can't you see things like I do?
You're my everything,my bestie my lesbigun partner my edward cullen my guitar playing nike wearing jiggamylove. I don't care how gay how skuntap how skinny you are,you're the reason Im complete. I can't believe you're throwing this boobiful "us" away over some stupid fight.

No matter how far you've strayed away,
No matter how many times you fucked up,
No matter how long your fights lasted,

Ive screwed up alot in my( almost )15 years years of life. The numbers of guys who have came & left versus the numbers of friends who have came & stayed. I fell a million times,but my friends were always there to pick me back up & brush the dirt off. The countless times I burst into tears,they were the ones who listened to me ramble on & on and comforted me & my snot-face. Whenever someone picks on you on your bad-day,they're the ones who tell the assholes to back off. Whenever you're feeling down cuz of anything at all,they try their hardest to put a smile back on your face. They're the ones you can't stand to see getting hurt,they're your pillars of strength,they're the ones you would sacrifice anything for,they're the ones you can't go a day without seeing each other,they're the ones you tell each & every detail of every moment of your life to,they're the ones you love with your whole heart because you know they would stand by you no matter what happens. Through rough & winding paths,through highways,through anything at all. You might even love them as much as you love your family,but thats a different story,you'll have to follow my blog if you wanna read about that :))

Save your heart
For someone that's worth dying for
Don't give it away


Save your heart for someone who leaves you breathless
And I know that you're scared
Seems like someone said you had it in you
All along you said you knew this was wrong
But still worth dying for

-mayday parade

we're on rocky roads,why can't you be happy just knowing i love you?

Why bother behaving if everyone seems to think you're always up to no good? Might as well do all the illegal stuff you can think of & get in major trouble

But noooo,im the good girl im the responsible one im the one who stays at home and do laundry and stupid house work. Yes,Im complaining. Well lately Ive been thinking and I said to myself " i think i wanna be selfish now " so thats exactly what ive been doing. Sick of listening to people's tiny weeny problems,sick of being taken for granted,sick of looking out for everyone. Well,you can look out for your own butts now cos its time I have a lil fun. Its time you guys listen to me cry and whine. its time you cut off the string you're hanging on and try to walk on your own.

Can't wait to fly to kl this monday,i miss my parents :))

I hope what I think is happening is not happening

I remember crying just because I made careless mistakes during the mock exams. I

remember crying

when I got sick cuz of my lack of sleep. I remember crying when I saw my result,not enough A's. I

remember crying just cause I failed to memorize the factors for Dato Bahaman's _________. I

remember crying just caused I dreamed of not getting straight A's.

Here's to the hours I spent studying,the hours I spent shading a/b/c/d boxes &

writing essays,the days I spent anxiously waiting for my results to be posted

on the class wall,the hours I spent having meeting with the teachers,the

hours I spent crying & getting sick cuz of too much studying,the massive

number of headaches I got,the hugeness of my eyebags,the faithful

mechanical pencil I cling to.

I told you I would scream my heart out when PMR became an old chapter in my book of life,trust me I did. I

have a sore throat & raspy voice to prove it. I told you I would sleep all day long for the restless nights I

had,trust me I did. Went to bed 9pm,woke up 11pm,showered & ate brunch,went back to bed,woke up 7pm to

have dinner,showered then went back to bed,the next day I woke up at 9am. Trust me,more sleeping days to

come. I told you I would go cuck-coo & go out for the days I spent indoors studying. My energy battery

needs frequent charging these last few days,Ive been going out like kuhh-razyy. I told you I would buy lotsa

books to read & go berserk over,KL here I come! Borders,you better watch out grrr :))

I hope I get straight A'a,amen.

mmm i think i feel like being reckless,let's see how you like being in my position. look in the mirror baby,don't be suprised when you see an evil gremlin,op its you :))

michukaaashieez,russ is pissed with me & im pissed with him also. but i miss him already. alah kawan,janganlah macamni. marilah kita pergi bersuka-ria. comeeee on lah bestie,u know u love me. eboh layan rajok kau lamak-lamak aok :))

Going out today,yay *splash splash

pmr is no longer a problem,i can have fun & do anything i want! my mission to let my hair grow long starts today! i won't chop off my hair,i won't i won't :))

MMM I WONDER HOW I LOOK LIKE WITH SUPER LONG HAIR

IVE DECIDED TO START KEEPING MY HAIR LONG,ACTUALLY TITOM WON'T LET ME CUT IT SO.....

LETS HOPE IM ABLE TO RESIST TEMPTATION & NOT CUT MY HAIR :D

MY-OH-MY
HE JUST TAKES MY BREATH AWAY
Im just addicted to Gossip Girl,
The way he talks,walk,kisses blair,gets angry,flirts
MMMMMM,delicious!
I can just eat him up,yummy :))

Chuck Bass/Ed Westwick,Ill marry you anyday! Even if I have to give up everything.
You're just too yummy to resist grrrrr.

Just remembered I did not post this one. It was stuck in the drafts file,so here it is!

Bet you can't believe I have time to blog right now eh :D
I just got back from school,pmr stuff is at the bottow section of this post.

So um yesteday was pmr-eve. We have xmas eve,gawai eve & blabla. I invented pmr eve! lol. That morning we had some majlis izin ilmu thingy at school. My-oh-my,we were given last minute tips & stuff. Then we got to the part where we um "reconciled" with the teachers,askd for forgiveness & stuff. We did that & when I reached the teachers who actually teaches me,( No offense other teachers :)) )I was already at the edge of crying thanks to the song that was playing. Sounded like some P Ramlee song. Old & sad. So when I reached Ms Roslin *sjdhqiweyweuyu (!!!) the tears came,so waterfall-ish. Then like all the hugging & the hand shaking & the goodluck speech just made me cry like a little girl. Then when we got back to the um sitting area friends & lotsa unknown people (again,no offense) started coming & shaking my hand & saying goodluck & sorry & stuff. Then I started crying again,then I told the girls about ************************************ then we started crying & then we started hugging & crying & hugging & crying. I let everything out & oh-my-goodness,I have to say this. After that event,I felt so free & good & definitely ready for pmr! EYERRR.

Then that afternoon Fiqah,Russ & Intan came over. We studied Bm to the fullest. My gawwddd. When we were satisfied that we've studied enough for tmrw,we decided to go to eng tat to get my taufa. Shucks,so cool taufa xda. LOL,so we had ein2's burger instead. GRRR SO NICE. Then like we met my classmates. Not one,not 2. MORE! Hahaha so we were all '3pn1 conquer eng tat ritok eh' haha. Looks like everyone went to eng tat to relax yesterday.

Day 1:
So this morning I was awake by 4am. I literally waited for my alarm to ring. I went back to sleep then woke up around 5am. So like I showered & got ready for school. Read my flashcards over & over again,then cooked my own breakfast. I ate then I went to pray at my moms mama mary's altar.

Then I re-checked my stuff: ic pmr slip stationry. Walked with Intan to school with her new purple barbie umbrella hahahaha. " PERGI PMR PAKAI PAYUNG BARBIE " The usual um we waited at the pre-exam hall & blablabla. Last min tips againnn,I re-read my flashcards again. So then IT WAS TIME. We were waiting outside the exam hall. Russ & I could not stop saying the 'hail mary' prayer. I stopped when I my heart stopped beating like crazy. We entered,looked for out seats & got ready. When the examiner put my paper on the table I said a quick prayer. So here's my comment,so far so good. Tmrw is eng & sci. Now Im gonna go take a short nap then study for a while. Lil bit nyy :))

Day 2:
I woke up a little later. Around 5.30am,thanks to Intan. Disturbed my dream pffft =.=
Showered & put on my uniform. Wore my pinafore that day,wrong decision! It was super freezing outside. Wantd to change to baju kurung,had no time as Intan was already waiting outside. I took my sling bag & went outside. Shivered & greeted Intan with a lame silly face. She brought her barbie umbrella again. English was quite easy,Sci was my oh my. I was so happy when I finished answering the paper 1. Then when I got my hands on the paper 2,grrrr. So then we went back & I showered & stuff. By the time I finished my shower my nose was running already. Guess what,SICK PMR GIRL. That night my body temp went absolutely crazy! Talked to my mom for a while & she told me to drink lotsa water lol :)) I miss them already! Can't wait to fly off to kl after pmr!

Day 3:
Woke up late,around 6am. Did not hear my phone ringing (intan called,she calls everyday to wake me up) Checked my phone & read Syl's text. " you still sick" I replied " yeah,shitty mayn" Depressing okay,could not study properly the night before that,my head was spinning like I was on a freaking roller coaster. So geo was okay,haha. Hope I get an A! MMM,so went back to sleep & stuff. Went to Nano's house. Studied for a while then went back to bed. Slept late eventhough I was sick,super cool yeah?

Eleh,wait till pmr is done & Ill post day 4 & 5. Now I wanna go out & eat.

PMR IS NERVE WRECKING MMM :))
4 days till the big exam!

Love qoutes that I just find ah-dorable :))

"I can't be your superman," he whispered, lowering his head. she reached out and took his hand. "I'm not looking for a miracle," she replied, "just to fall in love."

Im learning a dance routine I've already mastered but forgotten. Rekindled love is just magnificent.

You can't always wait for the perfect time. Sometimes you must have the bravery to jump,cause life's too short to wonder what could have been.Remember,if you don't risk anything,you're risking even more.

There's nothing scarier then getting what you want,cause that's when you really have something to lose.

You're like a ghost,oblivious to my sight yet you haunt my every thought.

You are my sunshine,my only sunshine.