Ill stop doubting myself
Ill stop doubting my decisions
Ill stop letting my emotions control my actions
Ill stop putting everyone first
Ill stop over-analysing stuff
Ill start believing in myself
Ill start making decisions for myself
Ill start loving myself
Ill start by being nice to everyone

I wont let anyone push me around anymore cause Ive had enough,Ill be a nicer person cause I know how it feels to be hurt,Ill start enjoying my life to the fullest cause my dads illness taught me that life is super short.

A pigg-toire I found. For my dad who can never make flowers grow. We have warm hands daddy,including Yen also! (: Mummy has cool hands thats why her flowers are so um subur healthy big pretty looking while ours look unhealthy small & ugly. Get well asap! Love you daddy big bear <3

Lyrics:
shut me out completely
that would not be such a sin
lock up every entry
make sure that there's no way for me to get in
won't try to pry them open
never mind knock upon your doors
truth is that there's no reason for me to even see your face anymore

but I need you ears and I need them now
I've got something to say
I'm not here today to win you back
just to remind you that

sure as the rain starts to fall
yes I'll always remember you dear
and although we don't talk anymore
I was crazy for you, yes I was crazy for you
that's for sure, that's for sure

nothings ever easy, I think we both know that it's true
I was convinced you loved me
and I was pretty sure that I loved you too
when was our final moments
what's your favourite might have beens
when was my fatal error what changed the way you thought of me ever since

cos I made you smile and I made you laugh,
I made nice gestures and surprised you enough
but I made you come, but I made you cry
I wish this was true but I'm not gonna lie

so sure as the rain starts to fall
yes I'll always remember you dear
and though we don't talk anymore
I was crazy for you
I'm still crazy for you, that's for sure
I'm still crazy for you
still crazy for you
still crazy for you
still crazy for you

SHIETTTT LAH
IM NOT GOING TO THE YOUTH RALLY CUZ OF LAST MINUTE UM PROBS
I KNOW THIS IS SELFISH BUT I WAS JUST SO TOTALLY REALLY REALLY LOOKING FORWARD TO IT

ITS DEPRESSING YEAH,
BUT MY DADS LIFE IS WAY IMPORTANT COMPARED TO FR STAN'S YOUTH RALLY
SO YEAH
HAVE FUN FOR ME THERE YEAH WHOEVER IS GOING |:

At least I went last year. So I guess that cheers me up a lil bit.

TODAY WAS SUPPOSED TO BE MY HAPPY DAY

Last night I went to sleep a happy bear. So yeah I woke up in a good mood. I got up from bed then *BAMMMMM! 2 words: period cramps. I groaned & jumped back into bed. YAY ME. Ive been swallowing those menstrual pills like they're candy this last few days. So I should start lowering my dose. Its not healthy. Looks like my happy day is cancelled. Today is stay-at-home day!